Please make the pain go away…
February 2, 2008 by lynn4u
I been thinking maybe if I wasn’t around anymore then people wouldn’t be so stressed out from me. I just bring pain into everybody’s life.
Why does everybody hate me? Why does everybody have to yell at me? Do people just see me as an easy target to yell at? Or do I really make that many mistakes?
Is it true what he told me? How does he really feel about me? Was what he said just out of anger, or was it really the truth? I need to know…I think this is what is really bothering me this week. i’m just really hurt. I need him in my life. I love him with all my heart.
By the way…update from my gift or him…I told him to read it this morning if he hasn’t already….and well…I didn’t get any response back…so I guess ill trash it. It just breaks my heart that he doesn’t want it. it really hurts…
Bring on the pain pills…
Babes… I haven’t read any of your blog, just this one post, but.. if u need someone to talk to.. we can chat, exchange emails/msn/aim.. whatever you like.
I’ve been the lowest of lows, razor blades, pills, alcohol, none of it helps.
You disappearing will not help either, you not being here will not help either.
Think of the people that would miss u, and don’t say there is no-one, because already look, im thinking about you right at this moment in time. There are people out there who care. You just have to find them.
Keep smiling.. and start talking.
Blog it will make u feel better.
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Dear Krista i wanted to say that i feel almost the same with you right now. I don’t know if something that i will tell you will make you feel better. I know that these feelings are hard. (Forgive me about my english). So the only thing i can say to you is “you live you learn, you hurt you learn”. You are not the cause of anything negative. You are just a human beeing that needs to be loved just like everybody else does. These two sentences is from 2 songs. The first from Alanis Morissete and the second from The Smiths. Have a nice evening and tomorrow a new day will come. I hope tomorrow you will be better. And remember there are a lot of people out there who feels the same and we have one another. Everything will turn out fine. You’ ll see!
You can only bring pain to people’s life that want you to, anything they feel is all about them, and has nothing to do with you. If you were not in their life, someone else would be there bringing pain in their lives instead. “Everybody” is only the crowd you are with right now.
I can understand you hurt, but I believe he told you the truth, you hear it, I am sure, listen to it, and move on. It is time to think about you now, you living a new chapter of your life!
There is so much waiting for you if you accept what is, and start living your new life. If you did not need to learn something out of this situation it would not have happened to start with. Learn and let it go. It is time for a better chapter in your life, where you grow, become more, and find true happiness.
You need to take this, whatever it is, learn from it, and grow from it. Your life can not improve if you are not willing to move forward.